Hello!
Well let's see here - it's been what about three/four weeks since my last post to reclaiming me. Not that anyone is really interested in my personal life but the last month has been full of "fishpaste".
If your not familiar with the term - watch Spongebob Squarepants. It's his swear word. And a darn good one.
Let see what happened (and I'm going to generalize so as not to get personal because I really don't want to relive the details). Yes, I am selfish that way.
#1. Got hopes up
#2. Hopes got crushed by emergency surgery
#3. Learned I could have died
#4. Reality strikes
#5. Find out something tragic has happened to a loved one
#6. Approximately 2 weeks later that loved one is gone
Yup...that about covers the ENTIRE month of March and a little extra just in case you really didn't get the depth of what was happening.
All the while, I've had one company take a serious look at me after 4 months of consistent searching.
OFF THE SOAP BOX NOW
So what did we learn during this episode of reclaiming me...
-> Life if just a bunch of "fishpaste"?
NO. Don't take for granted the little things in life that surround you each day. The most powerful thing that happened to me was realizing that I may have left this earth, my husband, my children, even my dog without ever saying goodbye. And that's when the tears started and still have not stopped. But I put on my brave face and keep on moving forward.
Take a moment out of your day and look at what's around you. Be thankful for the little, common, there everyday consistently, things in your life and appreciate them.
Until Next Time
Stay Cool.
Amanda :)
Showing posts with label overcoming hurdles. Show all posts
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Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Dad-Gum Short Term Memory Failure : Reboot! Reboot!
Good Evening,
I woke up this morning with the best title for my blog today and thought to myself..."Don't forget that title - it's perfect! - total eye catcher!" And what do you know - I can't remember. And I am so bummed out about it. Short term memory gets worse and worse as you get older.
Maybe it will come to me while I post this update. Let's pray.
This week has been an interesting one to say the least. Two days (four total if you count the weekend) where family was off from school and home 24/7. Had a great meeting with an friend down in San Diego. Got to meet an amazing spouse of a woman I am volunteer with at church/school and he has worked wonders just today (thank you god - keep your fingers crossed).
So...all-in-all...I think that it's been a great week especially compared to other weeks I've had and shared with you. ~This is when I think "you" need to take note and mark these days so you can fall back upon them when you're having those, more frequent, "not-so-good" days. Hence my Adobe Illustrator artwork below.
One last thought for the evening. I need to heed my own advice - I can hear myself telling myself this right now even before the words become reality and type themselves on this blog page...
(Side Note: I heard that those who talk to themselves are actually way above average intelligence. Well...even if it's not true... I'm taking it ! Take em' when you can get em'!)
It's not always going to be bad. There has to be a balance in the world.
--Good cannot exist without evil.
--Evil cannot exist without good.
The ol' yin and yang theory. And it's true.
YOU also control how you react to those bad days. As I am slowly learning. I have found this trick works for me - maybe it will work for you, maybe it won't.
Less reaction to the bad = happier state of being.
Until next time.
Stay Cool.
Amanda
P.S. That killer title I had - never came to me. Oh well...I'll remember one of these days and use it in another post in the future.
I woke up this morning with the best title for my blog today and thought to myself..."Don't forget that title - it's perfect! - total eye catcher!" And what do you know - I can't remember. And I am so bummed out about it. Short term memory gets worse and worse as you get older.
Maybe it will come to me while I post this update. Let's pray.
This week has been an interesting one to say the least. Two days (four total if you count the weekend) where family was off from school and home 24/7. Had a great meeting with an friend down in San Diego. Got to meet an amazing spouse of a woman I am volunteer with at church/school and he has worked wonders just today (thank you god - keep your fingers crossed).
So...all-in-all...I think that it's been a great week especially compared to other weeks I've had and shared with you. ~This is when I think "you" need to take note and mark these days so you can fall back upon them when you're having those, more frequent, "not-so-good" days. Hence my Adobe Illustrator artwork below.
One last thought for the evening. I need to heed my own advice - I can hear myself telling myself this right now even before the words become reality and type themselves on this blog page...
(Side Note: I heard that those who talk to themselves are actually way above average intelligence. Well...even if it's not true... I'm taking it ! Take em' when you can get em'!)
It's not always going to be bad. There has to be a balance in the world.
--Good cannot exist without evil.
--Evil cannot exist without good.
The ol' yin and yang theory. And it's true.
YOU also control how you react to those bad days. As I am slowly learning. I have found this trick works for me - maybe it will work for you, maybe it won't.
Less reaction to the bad = happier state of being.
Until next time.
Stay Cool.
Amanda
P.S. That killer title I had - never came to me. Oh well...I'll remember one of these days and use it in another post in the future.
Monday, January 17, 2011
The Wonder of Life
Hello!
I thought that maybe I would start a few different blogs since I have a few different ideas floating around in my head.
For those who don't know me, my name is Amanda Stuckey. I'm a normal, everyday person just like everyone else on the planet. I have my talents and specialties, I have my frustrations, I have my ups and downs, I have dreams and aspiration, I have failures and triumphs.
This particular blog is going to represent my journey through discovering who I exactly am. I personally believe that you change personalities as you grow up. As a child you try on different "faces" as I am watching my daughter currently go through this. She adapts to the children's attitudes around her. As you transition into adulthood, your personality solidifies through your experiences both positive and negative.
Sometimes, adults regress back to that stage of development. We transform and adapt to our environments and become creatures that aren't exactly who we are. We lose a sense of that solidity through heartbreak, loss, and challenges that ultimately defeat us. At this point in time, we HAVE to rediscover who we are and who we are meant to be. This is the point at which I am currently.
Now, I haven't lost anyone, thank God, but I have been defeated in a sense, but only temporarily. Through times of challenge you find out who's going to stick by you through thick and thin. And I know, this is just a regurgitation of what many, many philosophers and psychologist have preached for years but as stubborn and inflexible as adults are, you sometimes have to get jolted hard before you open your eyes to the reality of a situation. This is where you make a choice.
What's the choice?
You become defeated and crumble.
Or
You stand up, brush off, speak a few choice words, and begin to redefine yourself.
I've seen both sides of this wicked coin with different people. That first option is the most dominant choice most people make and that's scary and sad.
So, it's my hope that this blog acts as a guide which documents my own recovery so that it may help others get through this more quickly. These situations are sure to happen multiple times. Yes, multiple times. Some more debilitating than others but still the same beast, just in different disguises.
My first observation of this evil beast seems to fall mostly on women's shoulders. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an "anti-male", "power hungry female", "110% for women's liberation movement" type of girl - some men are debilitated by this as well. But the majority of the one's I've personally witnessed are with women. Why? I'm not sure and don't know if I will ever know why but I do promise you if I find out I'll share it with you. But I do have some hunches...
Feelings of Inferiority?
Jealousy?
Prejudice?
Territorial?
Lack of Self Confidence?
Plain ol' Stupidity? (My personal favorite and I think the most likely even though I REALLY hate calling people stupid but sometimes it's the ONLY logical explanation.)
Anyway, I'm almost 99% positive that all those reasons will become obsolete once you rediscover your true self.
Well I think that's enough for now. I'll see if I can't find some good books to recommend next time I blog about this subject.
Thanks for listening, stay strong, and believe in yourself. It's extremely important.
Yours Truly,
Amanda B Stuckey
I thought that maybe I would start a few different blogs since I have a few different ideas floating around in my head.
For those who don't know me, my name is Amanda Stuckey. I'm a normal, everyday person just like everyone else on the planet. I have my talents and specialties, I have my frustrations, I have my ups and downs, I have dreams and aspiration, I have failures and triumphs.
This particular blog is going to represent my journey through discovering who I exactly am. I personally believe that you change personalities as you grow up. As a child you try on different "faces" as I am watching my daughter currently go through this. She adapts to the children's attitudes around her. As you transition into adulthood, your personality solidifies through your experiences both positive and negative.
Sometimes, adults regress back to that stage of development. We transform and adapt to our environments and become creatures that aren't exactly who we are. We lose a sense of that solidity through heartbreak, loss, and challenges that ultimately defeat us. At this point in time, we HAVE to rediscover who we are and who we are meant to be. This is the point at which I am currently.
Now, I haven't lost anyone, thank God, but I have been defeated in a sense, but only temporarily. Through times of challenge you find out who's going to stick by you through thick and thin. And I know, this is just a regurgitation of what many, many philosophers and psychologist have preached for years but as stubborn and inflexible as adults are, you sometimes have to get jolted hard before you open your eyes to the reality of a situation. This is where you make a choice.
What's the choice?
You become defeated and crumble.
Or
You stand up, brush off, speak a few choice words, and begin to redefine yourself.
I've seen both sides of this wicked coin with different people. That first option is the most dominant choice most people make and that's scary and sad.
So, it's my hope that this blog acts as a guide which documents my own recovery so that it may help others get through this more quickly. These situations are sure to happen multiple times. Yes, multiple times. Some more debilitating than others but still the same beast, just in different disguises.
My first observation of this evil beast seems to fall mostly on women's shoulders. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an "anti-male", "power hungry female", "110% for women's liberation movement" type of girl - some men are debilitated by this as well. But the majority of the one's I've personally witnessed are with women. Why? I'm not sure and don't know if I will ever know why but I do promise you if I find out I'll share it with you. But I do have some hunches...
Feelings of Inferiority?
Jealousy?
Prejudice?
Territorial?
Lack of Self Confidence?
Plain ol' Stupidity? (My personal favorite and I think the most likely even though I REALLY hate calling people stupid but sometimes it's the ONLY logical explanation.)
Anyway, I'm almost 99% positive that all those reasons will become obsolete once you rediscover your true self.
Well I think that's enough for now. I'll see if I can't find some good books to recommend next time I blog about this subject.
Thanks for listening, stay strong, and believe in yourself. It's extremely important.
Yours Truly,
Amanda B Stuckey
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