Word of the Day: SIKE!

Hello!

I thought I would put up a quick post from Amanda B Stuckey: Reclaiming Me and let you know that I'm back. Back from the known to the unknown once again. It's one of those 90's words right : SIKE! Where you thought you had something but you really didn't.

I mean really. I got to a point where I was like...cool...I think I can handle this. I can spend time with my children, pay attention to my husband, work and help people, and also get a little me time in there too. Financially, well we weren't lottery winners by any stretch of the definition but we were ok and I for once was very thankful for that.

Then BAM!

SIKE!

Things go right back out of control. And my sanity went with it. Anyone seen it lately? Tell it to come home, it's missed.

I'm back in my black hole. Anyone familiar with the "Pit of Despair?" Or how about the "Land of Stench". Gotta love Princess Bride and Labyrinth movie references right?

Well imagine either of those two places, then magnify that destructive negativity by 50% and you have successfully identified my situation. In other words, Hopeless. (Not really but sometimes you just need to vent and give in - so humor me here)

I fear that I will have to go back to trying to find a 9-5 job and go back to the drawing board. And frankly, I don't have the energy or passion to try to do the song and dance for a future employer just to get told..."You're too over qualified you'll get bored in this position." Or one I love even better is the NO reply at all. Where you never hear from them after you apply. That's really cool. Nice job.

Anyway enough for today before I drag you into my world. I promise I will post a happier more sunshiny blog later this week. But until then...

Stay Cool.

Amanda :)

Holiday Schmoliday

Hello!

Been a little while since I posted. Well, my family has been home for three straight days and we're about to go onto a fourth. I love them, I really do but I can't get squat done when they are here.

Funny story - my son was watching Cat in the Hat (the newer version with Mike Myers) and the part where he pulls out the "Phunometer" comes up. I start to giggle to myself because I can only imagine what the "Phunometer" would tell me.



So... I personally think I'm right between the Bedwetter and the Control Freak. A little of both. Yeah - I know I'm probably breaking some cardinal sin on admitting that but I come from the school of complete and utter honesty. No matter what.

Honesty can bring you both good and bad circumstances. Trust me I know first hand - and it really all depends on who you're telling that certain truth to.

Short but sweet today - what does the "Phunometer" say you are?

--Just Right?
--Rule Breaker? (My normal reading)
--Control Freak?
--Bedwetter?

Have a great night and enjoy your holiday if you're getting one!

Stay Cool,

Amanda ;)

Stuck like a Goldish?

Good Morning!

I hope that everyone is having a great start in their day or had a great start depending on where in the world you reside.

I'm going to try to not be so doom-and-gloom today. I know...I know...bummer. I have to share this photo with you because it truly capture how I feel today.

Hence the name of my blog today. A picture is worth 1000 words. What do I see in this image?

Well #1 I see a fish in its natural habitat being restrained so that it can't do what it was born to do. Someone is wasting it's god given talent.

What can a goldfish do? What purpose does a goldfish have on this earth?

I'm sure someone knows. I'm not a fish expert but I am smart enough to know that they are part of the "circle of life". (HAHA) Maybe their sole purpose is to help regulate the bug population so insects don't overthrow the world. Who knows, someone does, but that's not me.

But the point is that that - image - is exactly how I feel. I'm being restrained somehow. Maybe I'm restraining myself. Maybe it's my situation that's restraining. Maybe my support system isn't strong enough where I need it to be. Some aspects of the support system are strong while others lack.

Any of you feel this way?

How do you handle it? I tried baking - no relief. I tried exercising til I fell over - no relief. I tried praying - no relief. So I just accepted...I stole this phrase from someone else but it rings true to ALL SITUATIONS:

~~It is what it is~~

Feel free to let me know what your methods are - I'd love to hear them.

Stay cool.

Amanda

FU....The words of the day

Good Morning!

Yes, I know what you're thinking. FU is an abbreviation for something profane. Well it's actually not. It can stand for Furman University or in my case it stands for FOLLOW UP.

On my journey of reclaiming who I am, I am following up with some people I reached out to for advice and counsel. I have yet to see this method actually work out but I will keep the faith.

Anyone ever have any success this method?

Gotta keep it short this morning but will return later. I am however going to check out a some software called Vocus. It's PR software that may be very, very useful to some volunteer projects I've been elected to help out with that I will tell you more about later if you're interested.

Until then...

Stay cool.

Amanda

P.S. My son just came into the office and said he had a "headegg" (AKA: headache). To be 4 again and not have a care in the world. SO JEALOUS.

Declined...What am I an ATM machine?

Hello,

I swear. I like to swear in special cases like this too. Three jobs and thanks but no thanks. Really? Not even an interview? If I had played a huge part in making you $16 million dollars a month wouldn't you say...hmmm...let's check this one out.

Whatever...

Keep on truckin'. That's what all the "employed" or people who don't need to work keep telling me. I guess that's the best and only advice I can take at this point.

I'm trying to reclaim - I really am. But sometimes you have days that just kick you square in the face, stomp you into the ground, and laugh the entire time doing so... stripping your will and sense of pride right out of you (what little you've built back up).

Hopefully tomorrow bring a better day and more opportunities.

A;)