Hello!
I thought I would put up a quick post from Amanda B Stuckey: Reclaiming Me and let you know that I'm back. Back from the known to the unknown once again. It's one of those 90's words right : SIKE! Where you thought you had something but you really didn't.
I mean really. I got to a point where I was like...cool...I think I can handle this. I can spend time with my children, pay attention to my husband, work and help people, and also get a little me time in there too. Financially, well we weren't lottery winners by any stretch of the definition but we were ok and I for once was very thankful for that.
Then BAM!
SIKE!
Things go right back out of control. And my sanity went with it. Anyone seen it lately? Tell it to come home, it's missed.
I'm back in my black hole. Anyone familiar with the "Pit of Despair?" Or how about the "Land of Stench". Gotta love Princess Bride and Labyrinth movie references right?
Well imagine either of those two places, then magnify that destructive negativity by 50% and you have successfully identified my situation. In other words, Hopeless. (Not really but sometimes you just need to vent and give in - so humor me here)
I fear that I will have to go back to trying to find a 9-5 job and go back to the drawing board. And frankly, I don't have the energy or passion to try to do the song and dance for a future employer just to get told..."You're too over qualified you'll get bored in this position." Or one I love even better is the NO reply at all. Where you never hear from them after you apply. That's really cool. Nice job.
Anyway enough for today before I drag you into my world. I promise I will post a happier more sunshiny blog later this week. But until then...
Stay Cool.
Amanda :)
Showing posts with label journey of life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label journey of life. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Journey...NOT THE BAND
Good Morning!
I wanted to put out a post today just for the fun of it and it ended up being a good one, I think. Let me know and type a comment on my Facebook page or here if you can.
Reclaiming me is supposed to be about the trials and tribulations of losing yourself and rediscovering yourself.
How do you lose yourself you ask?
Gosh...let's see your job, your boss, your co-workers, your home, your kids, your spouse, your house, your pets, your parents, your grandparents, your in-laws, your cousins, your friends, your town, your church, your social life (or non-existence of one), etc..
I think you get the point.
When you're young, you have dreams and goals. What's great about that time is there is
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
stopping you. You can't see the pitfalls, the tragedy, the dark times of life. You are carefree and pure in your own thoughts and feelings.
Then people, things, and events start to mold your from this divine being into something NOT DIVINE. Thus, the beginning of you begin to losing yourself. Responsibilities over take your life and you forget about you.
It's kind of an "oxymoronic" occurrence really. You know like jumbo shrimp (oxymoron).
Think about it for a sec here. You start out with good intentions. As a child, your going to be a surgeon (that was mine). Then your conscious begins to develop and you start seeing other kids who want to be firemen or dancers. You start to doubt your choice of surgeon. You go into middle school and high school and become preoccupied with the opposite sex (which unfortunately never goes away).
Then, in college (if you get to go) you revisit your original goals to find out that it's too hard or more "fun" to hang with the "cool" kids. Some of you may have done this in high school too. You change your major 5-6 times. End up graduating only to find out, that it's nearly impossible to find a job in your major. Or the competition is so fierce that you get out ranked and out scored by hundreds of others.
So you lose a little bit more of yourself because you have to compromise to just make a living.
Enter responsibilities.
You meet the right person.
Start a family.
Buy a house.
Get a dog.
Have more kids.
Change jobs.
Etc, Etc, Etc...
Responsibilities are escalating at a fierce rate, huh?
And during all this, you put yourself and your wants and needs aside to make sure that everyone else in your life has their wants and needs.
This is wrong. Very wrong. Now I'm not saying be totally 100% selfish and let the crying infant fend for itself, but you have to make time to reclaim who you are and what makes you happy.
The problem I am having (and I see others having too) it that you are so far removed from yourself that you don't know, or remember, what it was you wanted in the first place. And the journey back is much harder than arriving at your current destination.
So take time for yourself. 15 minutes. 30 minutes. 1 Hour. Make sure you hold onto you. It will make you stronger for all of those around you.
Until Next Time.
Stay Cool.
Amanda :)
I wanted to put out a post today just for the fun of it and it ended up being a good one, I think. Let me know and type a comment on my Facebook page or here if you can.
Reclaiming me is supposed to be about the trials and tribulations of losing yourself and rediscovering yourself.
How do you lose yourself you ask?
Gosh...let's see your job, your boss, your co-workers, your home, your kids, your spouse, your house, your pets, your parents, your grandparents, your in-laws, your cousins, your friends, your town, your church, your social life (or non-existence of one), etc..
I think you get the point.
When you're young, you have dreams and goals. What's great about that time is there is
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
stopping you. You can't see the pitfalls, the tragedy, the dark times of life. You are carefree and pure in your own thoughts and feelings.
Then people, things, and events start to mold your from this divine being into something NOT DIVINE. Thus, the beginning of you begin to losing yourself. Responsibilities over take your life and you forget about you.
It's kind of an "oxymoronic" occurrence really. You know like jumbo shrimp (oxymoron).
Think about it for a sec here. You start out with good intentions. As a child, your going to be a surgeon (that was mine). Then your conscious begins to develop and you start seeing other kids who want to be firemen or dancers. You start to doubt your choice of surgeon. You go into middle school and high school and become preoccupied with the opposite sex (which unfortunately never goes away).
Then, in college (if you get to go) you revisit your original goals to find out that it's too hard or more "fun" to hang with the "cool" kids. Some of you may have done this in high school too. You change your major 5-6 times. End up graduating only to find out, that it's nearly impossible to find a job in your major. Or the competition is so fierce that you get out ranked and out scored by hundreds of others.
So you lose a little bit more of yourself because you have to compromise to just make a living.
Enter responsibilities.
You meet the right person.
Start a family.
Buy a house.
Get a dog.
Have more kids.
Change jobs.
Etc, Etc, Etc...
Responsibilities are escalating at a fierce rate, huh?
And during all this, you put yourself and your wants and needs aside to make sure that everyone else in your life has their wants and needs.
This is wrong. Very wrong. Now I'm not saying be totally 100% selfish and let the crying infant fend for itself, but you have to make time to reclaim who you are and what makes you happy.
The problem I am having (and I see others having too) it that you are so far removed from yourself that you don't know, or remember, what it was you wanted in the first place. And the journey back is much harder than arriving at your current destination.
So take time for yourself. 15 minutes. 30 minutes. 1 Hour. Make sure you hold onto you. It will make you stronger for all of those around you.
Until Next Time.
Stay Cool.
Amanda :)
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